Anxiety

Anxiety, this ones a little tricky. Anxiety is a manifestation within the mind
Described as an immense feeling of discomfort, panic, unease
It doesn't require physical harm to be present
Although we can mask the symptoms, unfortunately there is no cure

It's always a good day, until it isn't
You get a sudden feeling, a thought, a vision
You hear a voice say you made the wrong decision
Now you questioning yourself, and you sensing some division
Suspicion... that's all it takes
Instead of going hard on this mission, pump the brakes
Don't recognize the faces around you, buncha fakes
I bet they got the place surrounded, let em chase
99 problems I imagined em all
Its weighing on me heavy, all this baggage involved
I was minding my own business, how'd I manage to stall
My mind was already busy trying to cushion the fall
Pushing back when i feel threatened
It's a blessing and a curse when your brain's a concealed weapon
When I step in to reality I'm met with
The same old hankering I left with

Anxiety inside of me, voices in my head are trying to lie to me
Try convincing me they're good but they're not nice to me
Would forget them if I could but that's the price for me
Yeah that's alright with me wont take it spitefully
Try to fit myself into society took awhile to see
That it's a fight for me living with myself and this anxiety

Always try to take me by surprise
Been combating this my entire life
Wind up feelin wrong when things are going right
Always creep up and try to kill my whole vibe
Try to maintain, but it's out of my hands
Shit never really goes according to the plan
Try to save face to suppress its demand
Filling in the blanks in attempt to understand
Gave this all my energy
Finding no conclusions but won't let this get the best of me
Take it in stride, like it's meant to be
Even though the doctor, ain't got no solution or a remedy
Feel my resolution just ahead of me
Cooking in the lab that's the recipe
Necessity, For me to live successfully
A life that's navigating negativity incessantly
And constantly questioning everything that's said to me

Anxiety inside of me, voices in my head are trying to lie to me
Try convincing me they're good but they're not nice to me
Would forget them if I could but that's the price for me
Yeah that's alright with me wont take it spitefully
Try to fit myself into society took awhile to see
That it's a fight for me living with myself and this anxiety

Alright... I understand you've been experiencing some suicidal thoughts lately
I truly hope we can get you on a better path here with this new medication
Some mild side effects... Run of the mill stuff. It shouldn't be too bad alright
So just try not to hurt yourself. I know this is hard for you, but just let me do my job

Always hear a voice in my head
Say "you running outta time, ain't no choice when you're dead"
Feel trapped at the house in my bed
Must be out my mind, roll an ounce to the head
All these images bounce into frame
Way out of line, there's no way to explain
Are we all just pawns in this game
Couple doubts but I'm fine, they're just sparks to a flame

These doubts in my mind lessen all the time
But when they hit life goes slow
Many nights in my room
Deciding what to do, guided by my FOMO
Take it all in when everything spinning
Nothing wrong If you don't know
Finally figured out, I'm okay with sticking out
Like a guitar solo

Anxiety inside of me, voices in my head are trying to lie to me
Try convincing me they're good but they're not nice to me
Would forget them if I could but that's the price for me
Yeah that's alright with me wont take it spitefully
Try to fit myself into society took awhile to see
That it's a fight for me living with myself and this anxiety

Yo... Its hard loving yourself. Let alone society
Who I am to judge. No man is a deity
Tripping off a pattern that does nothing more than lie to me
If I can't beat it guess I'll live with anxiety
Anytime I'm talking to strangers or anytime I gotta make changes, always so anxious