Sick Lie Future

What if i had stayed to save myself, would you mind

What if this was done in self defence would you mind

What if i had stayed and just played dumb, on your side

What if this was more than self pretence, sick lie future calling me

Need you, warning, never going to catch you falling
Bleed you, swarm in, sick lie future calling

What if i had taken everything, would you mind

What if i had choosen not to stare, sick lie

Need you, warning, never going to catch you falling
Bleed you, swarm in, sick lie future calling

And I feel like i'm missing something