Melancholia

I feel a sadness so familiar
i cant begin to climb out
the happiness i began to feel
is shreds of smiles filled with doubt
walk my road
drown my sorrows
In pointless media
my affection is borrowed
from emotionless touch

I can't begin to tell you how sick
I am waiting for the end of this
The waves of depression It ebbs and flows
like an ocean what do i believe
without my confidence I know my joy is in the now
But time becomes my biggest enemy
Is this the process of healing?

yeaaaaaahwhat will i become
when my heavy heart leaves meohhhhhhhh
left alone with everything that i could bei
f the melancholy brought on by the rain
could leave me nowand never come back again
who will i be left with

where can i begin
how can i begin again
i'll find myself
put it back together
i'll get better