Depressed Knights
Dear Dad
Since the beginning you've been the best father
Working your ass off and you were just on a
Nother level you did everything you could just to put food on the table
So Jonny would just be able to fuckin eat for the night
You be like a flight cuz you fly like an eagle your ego is might
I can't compete
Ya Ya
I love you son
I'de do anything for you in the world but I still just walk around with this chip on my shoulder when you can't even feel the bottom of your god damn feet
You're my hero dad
Ya Ya
When mom past away if just hurt us real bad
Thank god I had you and big brother Brad
I'm feeling real sad
I'm missing the life that we had
And I feel guilty so dad
Please forgive me
for the times that I wasn't there when you needed me
I try to be
But I got a problem you see
It's costing me awfully fees
Put the money in the music and the drops never seen
Mom would have been shittin in her pants when she found out I'm a rapper and I've grown to be a man
Dead dad
You are my idol
Ya
You are the reason that I'm still alive though
I live life like psycho and this is my road that I write so
What are you doing bro
Just checking in
Been thinking about you man
Love ya
I love you too
Big brother man
I've just been thinking about the fun that we've had
But for some reason I just keep making me sad
But I'm not angry at you
I'm pissed at myself
Fuck am I doin
Made some mistake but I'm only a human
I try to wake up
I'm in a cell
I can't get out cuz I'm locked in this jail
I ain't even got enough money to make bail
But I ain't scared for my life
No
My big brother trained me to fight so you only see stars when you fuck with the knight
Jonny you've been on a downward spiral
Since 04' I just don't talk about it
But I feel like I got to cuz that's all I got and without it
You will never know the pain of yelling at your mom cuz your Lego set wasn't built yet nah
Then you get mad start yelling at her
Leave the house slam the door behind ya
Come back later with big brother to find her
Not breathing
Mom? Mom
This is the story of my life
It's full of depressed knights
I walk though cloudy days
Just to stand in the rain
Feels like I'm living in my own hell now why do I love that it's killing me
Maybe I'm too numb to feel anything
So let me be
Yeah
Cuz I wanna be alone now
I don't want anybody to step up in my zone pall
Ya
So put the phone down
I ain't gunna answer I'm busy just making music because I'm a fucking rapper
Sometimes I feel like I'm in my last chapter
So before I go let me say a couple last words
Don't stress about it just say hi to your brother and have a beer
I love you
Soulmates ain't no question about it
You know that I love you too I don't want you to doubt it
I'm the one who fucked up this is my fault
Tired of puttin the blame on everybody like an asshole
Ya
Man enough to admit the fact that I'm the one who ruined you
So please forgive me beautiful
For all the shit I put you through
I'm working on myself now
Tryin to get the hell out
Of this hole I dug myself I'm bout to have a meltdown
Feels like I'm living in my own hell
Now why do I love that it's killing me
Maybe I'm to numb to feel anything
So let me be
Look the the shit that I put you through Jonny you fucking to this to yourself and you know it
Can't help it when your choking
I'de do anything but die for you cuz I don't wanna go yet
Ya Ya
And I truly believe that you can't help who you love
You can try to fight it but you'll never even come
Close enough to side it cuz it's deep within your blood
So quit trying to hide it baby I just need a hug
This is the story of my life
It's full of depressed knights
I walk though cloudy days
Just to stand in the rain