Cold city

The baby is growin', I'm buyin' a field
I'm walkin' a throne, I'm still in my feels
But nobody knows, I shiver with chills
I'm rockin' a boat, the watch that I own is Everrose gold
I live in the hills like Drizzy or Cole
The pain in my heart has never been told
My family warm, my city is cold
The life that I live has never been shown
A star on a pitch, a rapper at home
I'm cashin' the checks, the diamonds are froze
You see the deals and you see all the hoes
But nobody sees all the work on the roads
I coulda just stopped, I didn't, I rose
Now it's just sold out venues, 50 for doin' a show
I never could know that this was the path my Jesus had chose
Lost all my faith and it took all it's toll
Stuck in a drought, my confidence low
All of the money I had nearly blown
Bills kept comin' and comin' and comin' and comin
One day I was offered a loan
The devil would free all my stresses and groans
Bless me with money, the house and the Rolls
But one thing he said was he wanted my soul
God in my heart, must've said no
Stuck to the plan and I never did fold
Prayed for forgiveness, the life I was livin' was killin
And eatin' my conscience as own
Pain in my heart has never been told
My family warm, my city is cold
Ooh, shit tucked, rose clock, fold up
No trust, fake love, fake spud
VVs on me, CCs on she
Cold breeze, cold breeze
Devil's playin' on me
Baby angels I need
I'll be pushin' that P
One push, no keys
Straight cash, no knees
Cold home, cold street
My city's cold
Sinners, we open the door, can we chill with the winners
Hungry and poor like the dirty gorillas
Weak at the core and they're eatin' our dinners
Show no remorse for the paper they bring us
21st century, they're callin' us niggas
Gangs on the street with the blow and the dingers
And this is the life that we live, so we live with resent
I'm one step away like a five-a-side pen
Weak at the knees, the tackles that scarred
The few that had left, they're closin' the clubs
And openin' jails for the youth
I see but I choose to forget
Free in the mind, I'm the essence like Tems
Paintin' a picture, the culture is dead
Most of the time, all we want is respect
Chance for community, more opportunity
Love and the peace, black and the whites all in unity
Less RIPs on the T's
All of my bros, they're sent through the world all alone
I'm here, drop a text if you need
New and in balanced, black, so I'm reppin' the scene
Like Saka or even Raheem
Stop all the jealousy, envy and greed
Said at the start, the baby is grown
I'm buyin' a field, I'm walkin' the throne
I'm still in my feels, but nobody knows
I shiver with chills, I'm rockin' the boat
Watch that I own, it's Everrose gold
I live in the hills, like Drizzy or Cole
Pain in my heart has never been told
My family warm, my city is cold