Manhood

It's just your manhood Kev oh it's your manhood,
Your a man is that understood?
There's no more frightened man that walks,
My fear comes each time somebody talks,
(But don't you have enough to eat?)
Oh yeah, but deep down I feel so poor,
I feel rejection everywhere, even when it is not there,
I admit my god I was scared (but not anymore).
And I got scared to say "hello"
I was always thinking that they would want to go,
And though I hated myself I also felt that I
Had to shine somehow.
(Are you always feeling guilty?)
Yes
(Do you envy those who care free?)
I was so scared that I planned my every move.
It's just your manhood, oh it's your manhood
Your a man, is that understood?
But will I always be the stranger at the door?
It's just your manhood Kev it's your manhood,
Your a man, is that understood?
Listen,
I tried to love recently,
I found I'm sick emotionally,
Michaela from my heart I did not know what to do,
I don't think that I can stand this loneliness no more,
Somewhere inside, there might be happiness,
I just could not seem to get it out,
(What is it that you want to say?)
I tried so hard to be a man, I've often worried if I can,
My life has felt just like one long fight,
Let me tell you how for years,
I was waking up in fear,
Seemed like everything I did was judged all wrong (in my mind)
Until I could break free, I'd always be lonely,
What use is a broken man?
If it's my manhood alright,
Why is it that I can't stand my loneliness no more,
That's the way my life will be,
I'm not supposed to be lonely,
I've got one choice
(What's that?)
Spirituality
BIG G!