Had My Way
You'd be here with me if I had my way
Everything different
I swear nothing is the same
So many different faces
I guess come with the fame
Heart full of empty space
I wish I could explain
If I had my way, if I had my way
If I had my way, if I had my way
Waking up in all these different places
I don't even know the timezone
Long nights, pretty faces, can't remember
Drugs got my mind gone
Stomach flippin', head spinnin'
Sunlight shinin' through the blinds strong
Text message, voicemail
Hundred missed calls on my call log
Swear everything is different now
Waking up, kickin' bitches out
Any night a different city now
Don't make sense to get a house
Seein' shit I can't figure out
Conversations at Diddy house
Everybody want the bigger crown
Missin' Dunk, wish he was with me now
You'd be here with me if I had my way
Everything different
I swear nothing is the same
So many different faces
I guess come with the fame
Heart full of empty space
I wish I could explain
If I had my way, if I had my way
If I had my way, if I had my way
All these chains hanging from my neck
These bitches came for the check
I was still thinking on my ex
Couple niggas left after that
All the pain came with the stress
I was switchin' lanes in the 'Vette
And I'm really lucky I ain't rent
BY down to Mr x
In the mirror, wondering where Derez at
Takin' drugs, tryna fight depression
Fell in love, swear I regret it
Supposed to be here but she left
Five years ended in a day
Heart empty, see it in my face
I ain't ever been in love
The whole time she was fakin'
Fine bitches with some pretty faces
Only hittin' 'em when I'm in the states
And I don't never say I love 'em
But how I fuck 'em they'll think it
Close my eyes and visualize the
Things I don't dream
I can't lie, I can't lie
This ain't what I seen now
Dreams turn to nightmares and now
I'm scared of sleepin' now
I'm laid up with a bitch I
Ain't supposed to be with now
You'd be here with me if I had my way
Everything different
I swear nothing is the same
So many different faces
I guess come with the fame
Heart full of empty space
I wish I could explain
If I had my way, if I had my way
If I had my way, if I had my way
If I had my way
I probably wouldn't even be here
Honestly, I don't know where I'd be
I was so lost, so confused and misled
I didn't know where I was goin'
But if I had my way
I'd probably be back on the same shit
Derez De'Shon