Afraid 2 Live

I have so many questions/ hardly get any answers/
The one’s that haven’t spoken/ their tongues were cut out it’s madness/
The sadness reigns/ with rain of total torture/
My face fastened to a board/ I implore that this mortal/
Has a dream/ to be seen complete/
Needs to be around/ to accomplish that feat/
He needs to stop the depression/ from over pressing his life/
This obsession needs correction/ so it’s gotta happen tonight/

Diluted thoughts cross paths as I drive by/ in my mind it’s so unclear/
I’m just too lost/ to find my way/
I just/ want to escape/
But I couldn’t afford that ticket/so they turned me away/
I’ve had the cold breath/ of death brush by/
Never spared any emotion/ cause I ain’t afraid to die/
I didn’t even break a sweat/ when he pressed the barrel on my back/
My life has been so worthless/ my eyes never even flashed the past/
Dark days is mostly/ approaching closely/
Death of my soul/ and the reaper be hosting/
Shivers from the depths/ kept me from a sober life/
Quiver at the thought/ ought to make it a lonely time/
I don’t recognize/ this stranger staring back at me/
With the same puzzled look/ then I realise who it be/
Like a book/ I study all the Ole English/
Sickened at the sight of me/ I slam a bottle shameless/
Flour and water/ it’s getting harder to stomach this shit/
Bread and gravy for two weeks/ FUCK I’m such an alcoholic/
Tremble from the loneliness/ and fakin my life/
I’m more scared of livin/ than cutting my wrists with a knife/
I haven’t lived a life/ in a long while/
I’m an unsolved mystery/ a cold case file/
My world begins to crumble/ it was already rubble/
So the chances of my survival/ are something troubled/

I have so many questions/ hardly get any answers/
The one’s that haven’t spoken/ their tongues were cut out it’s madness/
The sadness reigns/ with rain of total torture/
My face fastened to a board/ I implore that this mortal/
Has a dream/ to be seen complete/
Needs to be around/ to accomplish that feat/
He needs to stop the depression/ from over pressing his life/
This obsession needs correction/ so it’s gotta happen tonight/