Maybe This Year Will Be Different

I'm stressed
But I'm blessed
I've got the weight of the world on my chest
And my head helps me carry the rest
I spend too much time at home
I'm not alone but the monotone
Is warranting a drink
I've been in quarantine for weeks
We live online
Where we spend our time
Comparing
Our lives and staring
At the highlight reel of friends
Where we all try to pretend
That it's not crappy
Don't want to get too sappy
But I miss you guys and I realized
That without you I'm not happy
Wish that we could hang out now
Sit around just laughing
Feeling the disconnect, hole in my chest
Why can't I reconnect, trying my best
Maybe this year will be different
Maybe this year will be different

It's not running from something if I'm chasing somebody else
But I can't help others get better if I'm busy not taking care of myself
It's ok I'm ok I'm fine
Just can't seem to stay out my mind
Just replays of old days behind
But these days the whole day is mine
And it feels divine

I wanna mean something to somebody
I wanna mean something to somebody
I know that I am too much
Will I ever be enough
I know that I am too much
But will I ever be enough