suicidal
In the silence of the night
I'm drowning in my tears
Lost in a world of darkness Consumed by all my fears
Every breath feels heavy
Like a weight upon my chest
Searching for a glimmer of hope
A moment of rest (of rest)
Wishing i could've been loud
But i'm too silent to talk
Wishing i could hear my screams
But i feel like even if I do
No one would care (would care)
In the darkest corners
Of my soul's abyss
I confront the shadows
That i can't dismiss
But within the depths
A fire starts to ignite
Burning away the fears
Revealing my inner light
Can't stop time
I'm drowning deeper
Than ever (than ever)
I'm drowning farther down
Than ever (than ever)
Farther down than ever
Yeah
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
Yeah
Said i'm only trying,trying
Said i'm only lying,lying
Said i can't get out,get out
Said i can't get in,get in
I'm using the blade
I wanna cut it deeper
I wanna cut it off (it off)
I'm sorry for thinking
This way but therapy
Wasn't the fucking way
(Fucking way)
Oh i'm suicidal
It's been like this for a while
It's been like this for a
Minute now (minute now)
I can't believe how
Fast the time goes
How fast the line flows
Suicidal (suicidal)
Yeah
In the silence of the night
I'm the one by my side
I'm ashamed of myself
I'm disappointed in my
Actions sometimes
Yeah
I'm not ok (ok)
My mind feels like
It's been trapped
And i can't get it out (it out)
I'm not ok
I'm not alright
I've felt his way
Ever since my uncle died
Shit i can't even imagine
A life without my grandpa
Shit i cant imagine
(I can't imagine)
A life like this at all
My demons are hollering
(Hollering)
There callikg in the dead of
Night but i
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
I'm only trying
I'm only trying
Trying,trying
Yeah
Said i'm only trying,trying
Said i'm only lying,lying
Said i can't get out,get out
Said i can't get in,get in
I'm using the blade
I wanna cut it deeper
I wanna cut it off (it off)
I'm sorry for thinking
This way but therapy
Wasn't the fucking way
(Fucking way)
Oh i'm suicidal
It's been like this for a while
It's been like this for a
Minute now (minute now)
I can't believe how
Fast the time goes
How fast the line flows
Suicidal (suicidal)
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Are these drugs worth it
Is this alcohol for it
Yeah
Yeah
I'm only trying my best
I can't go on with no rest
I don't know what to do with
Myself (self)
Yeah myself
Said i'm only trying,trying
Said i'm only lying,lying
Said i can't get out,get out
Said i can't get in,get in
I'm using the blade
I wanna cut it deeper
I wanna cut it off (it off)
I'm sorry for thinking
This way but therapy
Wasn't the fucking way
(Fucking way)
Oh i'm suicidal
It's been like this for a while
It's been like this for a
Minute now (minute now)
I can't believe how
Fast the time goes
How fast the line flows
Suicidal (suicidal)
Yeah