Maybe I’m Just Overthinking

If it was up to me, I wouldn't overthink it
The cards that I've been dealt are always rotten so I sink in
And I thought I could swim in paddle through until the deep end
But I find myself exhausted as I'm falling into sleep and
I don't know just how to fix it, no one ever taught me how to
They just taught me to embrace it. ''Never let it burn inside you''
But the moment I spoke up they poured the water in to dilute
Said the world got bigger problems than my little shitty switch ups
And it's messed up, the fact that I can't even take a rest, fuck
I just wish I had something to bring ease onto my front lobe
I can't slow down, niggas out here for my bounty
Feel like I ain't the only one inside me
Fuck, I wish I could write better raps
I wish I had some other interests, but I'll leave it at that
I don't want to say that I do not enjoy this at all
'Cause it's the only thing that makes my bloated head feel small
That's not entirely true, I never do this for you
I see this shit as fuckin' therapy, but what's it to you?
You only like me when I'm angry, when I'm pissed about school
I do this music shit so I don't have to go and serve food
I don't want a nine to five and I don't want none of you
I just do whatever the fuck that I fucking wanna do
You got a problem about my cursing, fuck am I supposed to do?
I guess my edgy personality is loosing your screws, so fuck you

I guess I'm everybody's clown and little puppet
Guess my voice ain't that loud confidence what I can't covet
And I hope it does get better so I have some other substance
Hope that I ain't sad forever, find my ways but I don't trust it