Never Having or Always

Never having eaten
Drawing on the walls with chalk
Getting lost in your voice
However many miles we walk

Never having slept well
Smiling when you play guitar
Falling sleepily on your chest
Wonder what the heck we are

Don't mind me
Please see me
Don't kiss me
Don't dismiss me

Come find me
You know me
You dress me
In the ways that you guess me

Never having been fun
That's a game you play so well
I wish that I had more to you
Other than my silence to sell

Never always verbal
Want to never be again
Thinking so much clearer
Armed with just a writing pen

Come learn me
Where I'm at
Please kiss me
I miss that

Let's build up
A system
A garden
Of our stims

Don't lose me
But don't take it
As a rule
You can't break it
String me up
Tell me your curse
Keep me safe
Inside your purse, if you want