Mad 4 You

I remember when we first met, hadda work a sweat
Just to get a little taste, like a Percocet
Couldn't look you in the face, I'm a nervous wreck
Couldn't imagine I would face an adverse effect
I was in pain, you took the shit away
But eventually you took my brain, and every cent I made
I tried to take a Lemon, make it into lemonade
Turn Hell into Heaven, and I let the devil serenade
You're fkn up my life, as you define me
But it's alright, cuz you're the only thing that drives me
You're already in my veins, you're inside me
I'm wishing I could straight main line you through an I.V
Got addicted to ya, cuz you're my pain killer
I'm living in a fantasy, but aint a thing realer
Might as well teach me, how to make liquor
I may never do another thing with the same vigor

I... feel like I've lost it again
I... feel like I'm mad for you
I am...

You a bad bitch, I can not ignore you
All across the world, everyone adores you
Even though I gotta sell you, to afford you
It still makes me jealous when they hoard you
See I been watching you, since I was fourteen
Leaning on you, even though you don't support me
Got me tripping, like a poor fiend
Got my heart melting, and it's dripping like it's morphine
But it's like a fkn OxyNeo, when you're on powder
I'm stuck inside a relationship that's gone sour
But it's a hard one to break, and it's got power
I know I made a mistake, but I am not a coward
And I will end my addiction, before you end my life
You never got my permission, where did you get the right
I really wanna fight, sometimes I'm petrified
It's like I'm living a lie, that's never specified

I... feel like I've lost it again
I... feel like I'm mad for you
I am...