Out of Sight Out of Mind

I can't shake this feeling there's some hidden meaning
In everybody's glances and stares

I know you're discussing how I have been suffering (suffring)
The thought of that makes me scared

You and I go hand in hand with being terrified
And if this is all that it is, then I want off this ride

I will never be okay with this kind of unstable life
I will never win the war despite how hard I think I fight
No matter any move I make I just can't get it right
But you know just what they say, out of sight, out of mind

I can't say that I have the greatest connection
With anything here on earth

And when they all see me they smile in pity
And ask me if my heart still hurts

No matter my answer, they freeze and they clamor
And say that everything is alright

And high on their saddle, the satisfied cattle
Pretend that everything is fine

You and I go hand in hand with being terrified
And if this is all that it is, then I want off this ride

You and I go hand in hand with being petrified
And if this is all that it is, then I'm wasting my time

I will never be okay with this kind of unstable life
I will never win the war despite how hard I think I fight
No matter any move I make I just can't get it right
But you know just what they say, out of sight, out of mind

And so I've waited all these years for your eternity
That's when I saw everything started and ended with me
And I apologize to you for all my ugly greed
I never had what you gave me, you gave me, you gave what I need

I will never be okay with this kind of unstable life
I will never win the war despite how hard I think I fight
No matter any move I make I just can't get it right
But you know just what they say, out of sight, out of mind