Incoherent (feat. Cursed Skank)

Now I gotta talk about the mistakes that I've made
I did what came to me couldn't contemplate
But let's not leave it to fate
Because I'm just a boy standing at your gate waiting to be loved
Nodding my way to your hill
I realize I look for faults in myself
I halt at every step
Before I start to commence any relationship
That I've ever been in and I mend
Maybe it's time for me my life disarrayed
Confused with no hope I'm mister miscarriage
And maybe a dead me is exaggerated
But what about living while you're already dead
I'm kinda exasperated
So I want to sow these seeds
And start to read before I start to bleed
Add all of it multiply it and then repeat
Because I'll relive that night throughout our lives
Whenever you don't wanna walk I'll take the stride
You gave me butterflies
I'm not letting you off my sight tonight
Can't let go of my fuckin feelings
Don't worry, time does the healing
Trouble trusting me
I'll be right here honey
Get out the bubble over the top kinda foamy
Love is like you when it's time to hop it's even broken for me
So please understand that I'm here
Maybe I was wrong to find you later dear
But it wasn't a second option
When you're the rhodopsin of my eyes
And I'm running in the wild unable to see your motion
Run your feelings on a tape like this album
I could auction my feelings
Just wanted to ask Curse to father his godson
It's embedded in my head like these toxins
I'm in a position where it's harder to develop
Cause I can't speak
Maybe I need some captions
Went to search out for something I already had
I don't know man feels like my humanity is at stand
So give me a chance whenever you are ready
I live in a trance where I'm forever slow and steady
Didn't mean to hurt you intentionally
Keep fuckin myself no amount of consoling
When I'm holding you close
The world makes sense I don't know how though
I know I messed up before
Let me take your woes, so here they go
Having lost myself in my tracks
I couldn't help but keep myself off of the track
So I guess I'm the bully
In spite of all this my dignity I sully
I shouldn't have done what I did
I am a little morbid
The timing was a little hurried
But I don't think I should be punished
Diminished inside, my relationships have been a ride
If our love was a target I missed the aim
How long will I gain from an extinguishing flame
The winner in your vindictive game
The damsel in distress I gotta save my name
No amount of consoling will make you believe
There's a thousand other things I'd leave
Asking you to trust me I went in so deep
Trusting my gut instinct but it slipped it seems
So I'm asking you this one time
Can you forgive me and be my rhyme
Give me a chance once you are ready
I'd even put my life on the line, my pride has been a crime already
In your absence my life I crave
My heart will follow you till the end of your grave
Your will is my master I'm not brave
I'm losing control I'm just a slave
You don't even know how I felt
The ways that I've dealt
The trauma that I've been in more than I've felt
Cigarette after cigarette I regret my health
Hey, man I had a nightmare
Man why the fuck you think she cares
Through the wrongs and through the rights
I'm moving all through the mics
I'm just a fuck up I couldn't seize
I insist and I persist I couldn't reach a point
That would grant any wish
I'd Give up my fuse
Just to go back with you
I'm standing here bustin' my vocal chord
This time my pen is mightier than the sword
Let me finish writing then record
A month for this album a life and more
When I'm holding you close
The world makes sense
I don't know how though
I know I messed (Feels like I'm bent ) up before
Let me take your woes (Maybe my rhymes are incoherent) so
Here they go