​keep still

[Verse 1]
Half of the time, I'm not here
Wasting energy on the worst-case scenarios like
Tripping in front of your mother
And choking and blowing my cover
Now the walls are closing in on me

[Verse 2]
Half of my lines are unclear
I swear I mean it when I say "I love you", I really do
Put one foot in front of the other
And pleading myself to try harder
Don't erase me from your memory

[Chorus]
No, I can't keep still I'm dying to know
How long until I come undone
Feels like I'm the only one who's trying too hard

[Verse 3]
Half of me's insincere
I'm a disarray of clouded conclusions
Never a hundred percent present when
None of this is making sense
Think I'm out of my body again
On the outside looking in

[Chorus]
No, I can't keep still I'm dying to know
How long until I come undone
Feels like I'm the only one who's trying too hard

[Outro]
Didn't think I'd make it past
Twenty-two I'm always last
To decide whether or not
I'm really worth a shot
Look at me past twenty-four
Can't keep up with keeping scores
Struggling to make amends
With all of the things I never said and did
Look at me I'm still alive
Kicking and screaming on the inside
Every second, every borrowed breath
A miracle in itself
A miracle
Half of the time, I'm not here