Open Letter on Instagram

I'm afraid of the future
I'm afraid my parents won't live long
Enough to see my kids
I'm afraid my show will fail
I'm scared my girl will get pregnant at
Not the exact time we want
I'm scared I'll never reach my potential
I'm afraid she's still in love w that dude

I feel like I'm letting everyone down
I'm afraid people hate who I really am
I'm afraid I hate who I really am
I'm scared people will find out
What I masturbate to
I'm afraid I'm here for nothing
I feel that this will feel pretentious

I'm scared I'll never grow out of Bro Rape
I'm afraid people think I hate my race
I'm afraid people think I hate women
I hate people can say anything
I hate caring what people think
I'm afraid there's someone better for you
Or me

I'm afraid this is all an accident
I'm scared I'll be Tyrese
I'm afraid Dan Harmon hates me
I'm scared I won't know anything ever again
I'm scared I never knew anything
I'm afraid I'll regret this
I'm afraid this doesn't matter at all
I didn't leave Community to rap
I don't wanna rap i wanted to be on my own
I've been sick this year
I've seen a bunch of people die this year
This is the first time I've felt helpless
But I'm not on that
Kept looking for something to be in with
Follow someone's blueprint but you have
To be on your own

The label doesn't want me to release in
December because it's not a holiday record
And I'm not a big artist
I started the record last Christmas
Christmas always made me feel lonely
But it helped me restart the new year
I want people to this
Album when everything's closed
When everything slows down and quiet
So you can start over

I got really lost last year
But I can't be lonely tho
Cause we're all here we're all stuck here

I wanted to make something that says
No matter how bad you fuck up
Or mistakes you've made during the year
Your life, your eternity
You're always allowed to be better
You're always allowed to grow up
If you want