I'm Not Home

When I cry tomorrow
Will it still be your call
The one I've waited for so long
Don't know the answer anymore
I've been reading pages
Of lovers and of strangers
Will I even know your face?
Will all be gone, will we prevail?
Every step I chose
Why don't I feel secure?
I don't know how to save this
Will we ever make it?
Should I even think this far?
I'm not home
Will I forget the feel of the ocean?
I'm not home
Do you recall when I fought back emotion?
Will I crawl back to you?
My heart's divided in two
Could I leave all behind?
Would it be so hard to try?
I've been waging options
I think it through with caution
Cause there's no turning back, I know
I'm tempted but my head says no
Every step I chose
Why don't I feel secure?
I don't know how to say this
Will I come to hate this?
Should I even think at all?
I'm not home
Will I forget the feel of the ocean?
I'm not home
Do you recall when I fought back emotion?
Will I crawl back to you?
My heart's divided in two
Could I leave all behind?
Would it be so hard to try?
I try, I try, I try
But it feels like I'm drowning tonight
I try, I try, I try
But it feels like I'm drowning tonight
I'm not home
Will I forget the feel of the ocean?
I'm not home
Do you recall when I fought back emotion?
Will I crawl back to you?
My heart's divided in two
Could I leave all behind?
Would it be so hard to try?
I try, I try, I try
But it feels like I'm drowning tonight
I try, I try, I try
But it feels like I'm drowning tonight
I'm drowning tonight