More Than What's Left (feat. Geronimo)

How can I be alright
Everything's going left
I'm supposed to live life
I'm still mourning my death
You don't think it's that deep
Yeen been in that depth
I can't even be me
I need more than what's left
I been feeling so empty, don't tempt me
Don't try to hold it against me
Don't weight on me cuz it's heavy
Just forget me cuz
You don't think it's that deep
Yeen been in that depth
I can't even be me
I need more than what's left
Meditating to preserve my cool
And observe my breath to reverse my mood
Words have power so say you
But I never see the power in the words I use
Fell far from the perch tryna quantify worth
Got hurt, tryna learn my roots
Couldn't turn a new leaf
I was looking for a bird's eye view with a bird's iq
Rephrase, should've never bothered
Seeing ideal homes full of better fathers
Instead of turning into ghosts, now the kiddies gotta cope
How I keep it Kosher, I should get an oscar
Turns out that the apple didn't fall too far at all
Cause it wasn't like I had nobody to call
But disclosing what I feel is defusing a bomb
So why would I wanna get em involved
How can I be alright
Everything's going left
I'm supposed to live life
I'm still mourning my death
You don't think it's that deep
Yeen been in that depth
I can't even be me
I need more than what's left
I been feeling so empty, don't tempt me
Don't try to hold it against me
Don't weight on me cuz it's heavy
Just forget me cuz
You don't think it's that deep
Yeen been in that depth
I can't even be me
I need more than what's left
I don't got options, you been watching
As I turn into a toxin, I'm exhausted
They surprised that I lost it, when I dropped hints
Shoulda saw it coming when they plugged the aux in
Now I don't drop shit, maybe I don't wanna let it go
I can't let it show, but it's all that you see
Couldn't figure out why shit hits the fan
And it fucked me up knowing that the problem was me
Shit I brought it on me, all the trauma you see
I deserve this shit, it's the karma for me
And don't say you feel me, stop bothering me
What the fuck do you think you got in common wit me
Stop telling me, that a song I made
About my suicide attempt saved ya fuckin life
You can pay your homage, you can pay respects
But I'm the only one who paid the fuckin price
I ain't in the mood to talk anymore
I ain't who I used to be
They been telling me to stay around
So then I open up and all they do is leave
Fuck do you mean
A 16 ain't enough
But we ain't whole because we knew the half
I'm fucking awful at keeping in touch
I'm just busy needing what I used to have