Damned Experiment
When I was young
They gave me things I couldn’t check out for shit
I’d like to spit it all out by now
For there’s no fucking way to fit
The world I’m pushed in
My view’s upset
They just wanna see me bent
A torture chamber’s a fucking place where all my youth’s been spent
Some need children, some need slaves
But nobody gives a fuck about children’s pains
Pains! Pains! Pains
I know for sure
They wanted a calm multifunctional robotic creature at hand
To call, to send, to construct and spend, to keep at bay, to command
They thought knocking me down was enough
To show me all of their love
/And all such stuff/
It took ten years for anything to make me laugh
Some need children, some need slaves
But nobody gives a fuck about children’s pains
Endless nightmare
I’m the subject of their
Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I’m scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Girls turn into wrecked toys
Damned experiment
Boys turn to broken boys
Stop! Please stop
Somebody, please
Explain to me: is it a nature’s prenatal joke
Or something else
All I know: my body’s a damned fucking yoke
No matter why no matter how but it’s here and eats me alive
An unstoppable pain for days, for months, for years, for a whole life
They fuck my brains
And pretend they’re the most loving parents, but yet they pervert
My every word, my every breath, they leave me nothing but death
Lost my health, fell downstairs
Hung myself, cut my veins
They don’t give a fuck! Why the hell
But give me a thousand wrong names
Some need people, some need shit
The damned motherfuckers don’t care what they did
Endless nightmare
I’m the subject of their
Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I’m scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Boys never turn to girls
Damned experiment
Girls never turn to boys
While the other ones were growing
Like happy flowers in the sun
I was scratching, I was clawing
Cuz I'm condemned to be alone
/ Hold! / What have I got to hold on to
/ Dad! / You’re not a dad – I don’t want you
/ Birth! / Don’t understand what I’m born for
/ Mom! / You turned your back on me – I’m living no more
/ Doubt! / I don’t believe their pretension
/ Pain! / Who’ll stop this pains penetration
/ Hope! / Hope someone comes here to stop it
/ Please! / I’m in the torture room: someone unlock it
Endless nightmare
I’m the subject of their
Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I’m scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Some will lose and perish
Damned experiment
Others will fight and live
Yeah
Damned experiment
Burned down my psychic
Damned experiment
I’d like to die cuz I’m sick
Damned experiment
Scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
I’m scarred with hate and malice
Damned experiment
I’m a scarred girl
Damned experiment
I’m an abandoned girl
Damned experiment
God, help your daughter
Damned experiment
God, save your daughter
God, save your daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God