You'd Think by Now

It isn't fair, it isn't right
I've gone over and over the scenes in my head,
Laid here awake half of the night
No it isn't good, and I can't let go
Must have been something or someone I hurt,
In some other life somewhere long ago

[Chorus]
I don't know how I started down this tailspin
Why one more time I just did not see it coming
And you'd think by now,
I'd have figured out the pattern

I shook my fists I've left too soon
The soft wounded animal inside of me
Stood up on its hind legs and howled at the moon,
Anger rises in a violet storm,
And when I am wisest lay down beside it
And hum in it's ear until it gets quiet

[Chorus x2]

It isn't fair, it isn't' right,
I've wished on a million or billion bright stars,
Prayed like the devil with all of my might
And somebody said, "What's really true
Yeah all of this stuff is different I know
But what is in common has always been you."

I'm learning to see, the heavens are so starry
And if I'm not too proud I'll learn to say I'm sorry
You'd think by now I'd have figured out the pattern