Denouement

The world I thought I knew
Dissolved and born again
In the form of truth
I was unprepared

All of my indiscretions digested at the same time
Crushing self-awareness without a warning sign

There's no warning sign

For the past five years, I've been a wreck
If I could find my heart, I'd apologize from the bottom of it
Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death
I close my eyes and catch my breath
I can't believe I let myself get this far
Consistently tearing myself apart
Reconstruction so out of reach
Redemption's in the wreckage
Just dig deep beneath

I've been avoiding divine intervention
I've had my head in the clouds, but now I'm ready to come down
I'm hell-bound

Devil on my shoulder, hello, my old friend
Have you come to gamble with me again?
The stakes are raised, I'll put it all down on red
Or let the black send me to my end

For the past five years, I've been a wreck
If I could find my heart, I'd apologize from the bottom of it
Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death
I close my eyes and catch my breath
I can't believe I let myself get this far
Consistently tearing myself apart
Reconstruction so out of reach
Redemption's in the wreckage
Just dig deep beneath

Such destruction formed by untimely circumstance
Reality misconception through a psychedelic trance
The requiem played on
Yet there was no one to dance
All mankind caught in a loveless romance

Are we so desensitized that we've forgotten what's real?
Numbing life down to a complacent, synthetic feel

I will not bow down to this out-of-touch reality
We live lifeless lives
Glorify your mortality

Hold on to every moment
When you're overwhelmed and brought to tears
So out of touch and hardened
Why is it that we can't grasp these years?

Not the lost hope or sadness
But burdens we've conquered in times of madness