I Walk Outside (Outtake)

I walk outside; you were never really there
And I think to myself, that there are buildings everywhere
I walk outside; you were half-conscious, so it's fine
And I talk to a friend on the phone, and it's all right
I walk outside; I miss late nights in the city
In your apartment, you held many things; but this was always there
I walk outside; all your secrets came back with me
And I think it's cool. It's cool that you're letting it all go

And it's cool, it's cool; just like your dreams, and my dreams
And everything is fixed, and the world is made up of
Guns and newspapers, and toy painted guns are illegal
And I walk outside to find nothing
But the corner and the back

I walk outside; I feel nauseous every day
And I think to myself, that it shouldn't be this way
I walk outside; I've never dealt with this before
Or maybe I have, and I thought I wanted more
I walk outside; I miss the dark and the light
Because for now, it's all just figures facing towards the street
I walk outside; I want everything I can't have
And I talk about the way it all has to end

But never knowing this brutal ending, and everything is dead to me;
We're all soldiers fighting cars on the little highway roads
And I walk outside to find nothing
But the corner and the back

And the signs all point to an intersection of two roads