better

Maybe I'm not used to losing
I always make it about me, I know
And I'm no stranger to delusion
I think I need someone to call me out
'Cause I took the longer exit
So I could play that song again before I got home
Sat on my floor
Watched the sun go down on all of it
I looked inside myself
Had nothing left to cry about
And everyone's like, "time will smooth things over"
But maybe I don't wanna get over it
Because I don't wanna forget
I'm replaying every detail to make it last
So I think I'll stay here a while
I'll just sit inside the hurt
It's gotta get worse
It's gotta get worse
It's gotta get worse
Before it gets better
Even if it's painful
Well, at least I'm feeling something
Give me the bitterness, I'm grateful
For any space that you still take up
And I know that sounds insane
But I've never been too good at games
I blinked and then I lost before it started
Someone tell me how to play
I looked inside myself
Had nothing left to cry about
My therapist said, "time will smooth things over"
But maybe I don't wanna get over it
Because I don't wanna forget
I'm replaying every detail to make it last
So I think I'll stay here a while
I'll just sit inside the hurt (I'll just stay here)
It's gotta get worse
It's gotta get worse
It's gotta get worse
Before it gets better
So give me one good reason
Why I shouldn't get my hopes up
'Cause I'm okay to keep daydreaming
Don't really wanna pull the curtain back
'Cause I don't wanna get over it (over)
Because I don't wanna forget (I don't wanna)
I'm replaying every detail to make it last (oh no)
So I think I'll stay here a while (I'll stay)
I'll sit inside the hurt (right here)
It's gonna get worse
It's gotta get worse (I'll get)
It's gotta get worse
Before it gets better (better)