Restless

Restless
We raise, we fall
What was that, where the hell have I gone through?
What happened to me?
Realize that I've lost control
My body is paralyzed, my mind is blurred
On the ground like a fallen leaf, fallen from the trembling tree
Not living, just killing time
I'm afraid to lose what was mine
I feel so restless
We raise, we fall
What if this was my last breath?
Foreign in my own body and mind
It seems like I'm stranded on a dark cloud
Where there's no place to hide
Alone, alone in the dark, hoping for my sunrise
Somebody must hear my inaudible cry for help
Please show me the way out
I’m chasing the wind and try to catch the light
How many hours will it still take?
Staring up to the clouds above
And listening to the same damn song over and over again
I want to run away from myself because at any moment everything can change
What is this, what was that?
How many hours will it still take?
What is this, what was that?
I want to run away from myself
What is this, what was that?
I assume it's the normal circle of despair after touching the sky
and now it is falling down on me
Was it worth it? was is it really worth it?
What if I can't ever be free anymore?
Is this the reality or just an illusion?
Bite my tongue to see if I can still feel
Time vanishes into oblivion, into a black hole
Please help me out