4:00 AM / A Way Out

Thoughts are the shadows of feelings
Always darker, emptier, and simpler
I don't care if they're fake or real
I just thank them for showing up at all
I have black periods
Who does not?
But they are not a part of me
They are not a part of illness
But a part of my being
What am I saying?
I have the courage to have them
Four o'clock in the morning
This sucks
Is it my turn to speak?
It's finally time to say
Why do some people hold harder as you get away?
Have you got all control?
Have you lost all your sense?
It's time to pick up all my things
And see where the road heads
Maybe I'm just stupid
Maybe I'm not right
Maybe all the times I asked you
You might've replied
But is it really worth it?
Did you even try?
Tear this family apart hope they believe your lies
What you're saying to me
I just can't
Put the soap in my mouth
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
I've got things to do
I've got things to say
The youngest child had his fun
It's time to break away
We will not meet agenda
We don't see eye to eye
I guess this is so long, farewell, and a fucking goodbye
What you're saying to me
I just can't
Put the soap in my mouth
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
I'm trying to save my city
I'm trying to save my city
I'm trying to save my city
I'm trying to save my city
What you're saying to me
I just can't
Put the soap in my mouth
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
Find a way out
Find a way out
Find a way out
I just can't
I'm trying to save my city