Through The Threshold, Beyond The Bend

Stepped through the threshold
I made it beyond the bend
As my feet touch the ground
I feel the worlds extend

As the blinding light fades into colour
I feel my reborn skin
Everything is different now
But there's still a hole within

Is this what I longed for?
Why am I still wanting more?
Why am I not satisfied?
I gave up everything
And I'm still hollow inside

Surrounded by a family
They're strangers to me now
Surrounded by familiar places
But I don't know my way around

Maybe I got it all wrong
The scenery has changed
Everything is better now
But I still feel the fucking same

I think I'm not meant to be happy
No matter how far I go

Time passes but I still stay the same
I loathe the person I became
Another life, another place
What I am was not replaced
Reflection changes everything
And I'd like to think I've learnt from my mistakes
But I can't go back,
For here I'm trapped
I can't change my fate

Maybe I was the problem all along
How I saw the world
Now I can't return
Never took a chance to stop and smell the roses
I'm buried beneath
As my body decomposes

I convinced myself nothing was right
I wasted time
A wasted life
With all i've learned
It all stays the same
Nothing I can do
Nothing I can change

And maybe I was the problem
It was me all along
I couldn't fix how I saw the world
And now there's nothing I can do
There's no way that I can return

And I can recognise now that I should've taken a moment
A chance to stop and smell the roses
If I'd just taken that moment to reflect
Maybe I wouldn't be buried beneath them
As my body decomposes

And I convinced myself that nothing was right
That there was no reason for me stay
I wasted time
A wasted life

And with all that I've learned
I can say it all stays the same
There's nothing that I can change
I can't go back
I can't replay

And if I could
Would I be happy to be alive?
There's no way that I could know
Maybe in another life