Deal With It

Maybe I will never get it right
Lately I've been staying up at night
Crazy things I'm saying in my mind
In my mind
Maybe I will never get it right
Lately I've been staying up at night
Crazy things I'm saying in my mind
In my mind

Now I'm left behind and all I've done there's not much left to show
Think I need to slow it down before I start to lose control
Building up the pressure just for nothing now I'll never
Know the level that I could've reached
Held myself down so I couldn't speak
Did what I could so I wouldn't breath
Too many things I shouldn't have seen
Said so many things I didn't ever mean
Now I have to deal with it
Now I have to deal with it

Now I gotta get real with it
I got it all I just don't wanna give it up
I don't wanna give it up
But I still lose it in a stick up
Everything feels like a hiccup
Especially if I need to pick up
Now I'm tryna fix it
Living like I'm glitching
Stuck in intermission
Looking for permission
Now I'm in the shit
Because I can't stop bitchin
About these premonitions
Elevated all my preconditions
Only now I'm wishing
That I chose a different mission
The pathway seems so hidden
But truly I'm just missin
Every single proposition
Notice how I'm dishing
Out the facts never dissing
Unless you cannot listen
To the few things that I'm saying
I'm not playing
I'm just faded so sedated
Not related can't compare or even get graded
No point in even saying shit

Now I'm left behind and all I've done there's not much left to show
Think I need to slow it down before I start to lose control
Building up the pressure just for nothing now I'll never
Know the level that I could've reached
Held myself down so I couldn't speak
Did what I could so I wouldn't breath
Too many things I shouldn't have seen
Said so many things I didn't ever mean
Now I have to deal with it
Now I have to deal with it

Now I have to deal with it
Countless times I've been down this road
And the amount of nights I've spent alone
Laying without you here I feel too cold
Shivering wondering if my messages are delivering
Or if you think my intentions are deliberate
When I'm speaking sounding so illiterate
I'm just slurring so absurdly
I assure thee I'm not worthy
Of sitting still while the clock ticks
Mood flips like when the stocks flip
I just gotta deal with it
Only choice I have is just watch it
No way to stop it
Kamikaze pilot and I'm in the cockpit
No options so fuck it
Might as well kick the bucket
While leaving the discussion
Open with no comment

Now I'm left behind and all I've done there's not much left to show
Think I need to slow it down before I start to lose control
Building up the pressure just for nothing now I'll never
Know the level that I could've reached
Held myself down so I couldn't speak
Did what I could so I wouldn't breath
Too many things I shouldn't have seen
Said so many things I didn't ever mean
Now I have to deal with it
Now I have to deal with it
Now I have to deal with it