Sailor Boy

As lover, I'm shit. She's always known it
She craves confusion, I aid her delusion
The sailor boy, her sailor boy

A junkie's eyes, handsome and thin
Ropes blows and whips, oh I bound her within
Oh - oh

It's funny, it's funny, it's funny I say
How insecurity works out this way
The bigger my sins, more she wants me
The bigger my lies, more she gives to me

I choose when I hurt her, I choose when she smiles
There's annihilation here, the love I defile
I lose my need for her, lose my feelings
Lose myself in this puddle of drugs

In our ship, she patches the holes
I hit her when she needs me to, she keeps control
Thought I was on top, but I see I'm below
Thought I was captain, she stows me in hold
Now I cannot get this collar off of my neck
Now I cannot abandon this wreck