30 Shades (feat. Nolo mCK)

I'm stuck back in Neverland, watching the sunset, picking up roses
I tried to look past to the top of the castle and then I was floating
I felt like the world is expected I grow up until the day I quit growing
I only vent when it's cold on the metro And can't tell the smoke from my breath
When I feeling like Putin and it all goes blue like a whole damn pool, you can tell from my posture
Zoom when I'm in my room, when I'm in my suit you know it's going to cost you
Watching my phone like I'm surprised you, I am shook you lied to
Looking ahead like I'm tied to
Wondering if this is what I'm called to
And my Grandma calls, and I never call, and I always blow off her too
But I talk to God about the ones I lost the night before I go snooze
Like why would I wait 'till it's too late and you're not responding like you
Every time I try back, she done lose faith, but I probably find an excuse
I don't want time to correct me, I'm finally ready to pop like confetti and hop in the fans
Yes I wouldn't bet me, as soon as you check me, I'm Machiavelli, and I pour revenge
Choppers Machetes', I got to be steady, it's time to be messy, it's all in my hands
I got to keep running, locked in 100, I got to be hungry while I'm on a binge
Let it rain, always looking back
Lay in bed, always switching around, my head
But they different now instead
40 bands by the moon, wine cabana by the pool
South of France for the move, diamonds dancing like the moon
Got my first checked and I spent it on shoes
Said that I'm shallow and maybe it's true
All on my grind, I've been getting this loot
I don't have no time, so I spent it on you
I only wanted a taste, then I developed the taste
Only drink liquor that's straight, everything took to the J
Ate up the garden it went to my head again
Why can't I ever just settle like sediment
Won't hit the car without dressing up devilish
Always know I can get better and better
I'm posting
Out the block with a coasting
All the rocks I've been toasting
Trying all of these potions, I don't even go back
I'll know if even want to go back
Sometimes it's hard to even look back
Let it rain, always looking back
Lay in bed, always switching around, my head
But they different now instead
Always got to get it if I feel like it's attainable
I've been feeling distance but I think I like the Shade of you
I think I'm afraid of all the changes cuz my plate is full
But I keep taking more, I think I might just be insensible
I be caught in the middle, I don't know how to feel
Going hard like we're 15 always keeping shit real
Trying to climb to the top, I'm almost over the hill
Got me lost, and I'm dreaming, fell a sleep at the wheel
I be trying to hold it all together without falling
Always there beside me to remind me we been balling
I can feel it down with no walls, and turns into scarlet
And nothings ever scary when I look up and you're smiling
Let it rain, always looking back
Lay in bed, always switching around, my head
But they different now instead
I'm posting
Out the block with a coasting
All the rocks I've been toasting
Trying all of these potions, I don't even go back
I'll know if even want to go back
Sometimes it's hard to even look back
Let it rain, always looking back