carnation & dogwood

"I don't want you in my sight when I get home"
"Why do you think I hide everything"
"I don't know if I mean the words I call at you in my pools of brood"
"Won't trust, won't trust, but I'll come back for you"

And if you want me off it
Then don't cause it
I just like the way it feels
Bleedin' myself in a field
Rainless thunder
Under gray misty skies
Makin wishes on red dots
That I'll get away
And you won't know if you don't ask
And you don't know cause you don't ask
And I won't tell cause the past
So someone better hold me back
You don't know me
That's embarrassing
That's embarrassing
That's embarrassing

This a letter to my parents
An epistle to the principles that make me feel embarrassed
There it is the dianthus in the xeric soil
Screamin' Roy
Got oil on my sleeve from
When I brushed past all your portraits in the dark
Feelin' dead but I guess I'm deathless in art
And you don't know but I miss you all the time

Thought I'd rip into you just a little
But it's self-inflicted
Projected through the middle of the room
Carnelian covers my clothes
Like a specter I drift through the walls
I wanna run away, I don't
Oh, but some things never change
I know revenge won't make me feel better but it'll entertain
And a fight breaks out in the rain