Change

Transparent god complex but I needed something to believe in
I was only religious when I was young, but with you, part of me thought the praying wasn't leaving
But now in conversation, I correct myself day to day
I still slip up, an old force of habit, too many brainwashed years of self-appointed fake names

I'm teeming with desire to call you a liar
And that's cuz I know that it's true

I see them smile, and I'm confused
Is there finally a person that you brought love to
After all that you did, I never thought I'd see the day
They seem happy with you
But it just can't be true
Cuz that means that you were always capable of turning this way
And I just wasn't worth the change

Neglect until the moments where you wanted me to help you look like you knew what to do
Behind closed doors, with my bruised chest and wall, it became apparent you hadn't a clue
Sometimes I still wonder if I caused a blunder by not speaking out about all of your faults
But I look at you and clearly it's exclusive cuz I know you don't treat them that way at all

Don't act like a messiah
I know you're a liar
You don't know me like I know you

I see them smile, and I'm confused
Is there finally a person that you brought love to
After all that you did, I never thought I'd see the day
They seem happy with you
But it just can't be true
Cuz that means that you were always capable of turning this way
And I just wasn't worth the change
I just wasn't worth the change

When you said you loved me
Did you even mean it
I know it didn't hold up
But your answer's the difference between me crying or screaming
Were all of my feelings byproducts of dreaming
I'm sorry that my existence is inconvenient
But is this just a charade
Or do you really mean it
Cuz if this is just more of the same
Then why aren't they leaving
Then why aren't they leaving

I guess you're fine, I guess you're swell
I guess I should be happy for you as well
I guess after all I was your deathknell who you hope never tells
I should just hope that they're OK
Because I suppose I have no place to say
But after so many years of putting me through all this pain
I should have known
You were never gonna change
You were never gonna change
You were never gonna change
You were never gonna change
You were never gonna