Two Letters

I know, I know I should be better
I think I am to some degree
I can't explain why it gets harder
The more people count on me
Maybe it's all in my head
And nothing's changed and I'm still in the basement
With no tattoos or mortgage payments

Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
It takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you now
I don't know what I should call you now

I don't believe that anyone runs
From their past so easily
Unless they run towards someone else, and
I've seen you lacing up for years
I guess your future looks great
Well good for you
You're still my inspiration
But less in tune and more abrasive

Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
It takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you now
I don't know what I should call you now

Ex sounds dirty I can't say it
Sounds so final, and I'm still praying
For the words, for the better
Nothing now, just two letters
I hope you understand
I'm not prepared to call you just a friend

Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now

Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
And It takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you
I don't know what I should call you
I don't know what I should call you now