Fade to Black / Transparent

[Part One: Fade to Black]

[Chorus: Azure The Paradox]
Yeah, bitch I'm gone, can't take this back
Fuck my life I'll fade to black
Been through shit can't stay on track
Looking away can't face the facts
I can't tell you where I'm at
Too far gone I might go mad
You were right I'm psycho damn
I lost my light I can't go back
Yeah, can't take this back
Fuck my life I'll fade to black
Been through shit can't stay on track
Looking away can't face the facts
I can't tell you where I'm at
Too far gone I might go mad
You were right I'm psycho damn
I lost my light I can't go back

[Verse: Azure The Paradox]
I'm sorry, I love you if you get the message
This way too deep just text it
I just got sick of the flexing
And lying to everyone about my expressions
I ease the pain with more pills
I feel so much bеtter when back on the hills
Or drowning mysеlf in the lust
Cuz this all I know man I never knew love
So make it clap for the one time
I swear I'll be back to you sometime
Been thinking bout ending my bloodline
I see your eyes in the sunrise
Been pushing my boundaries yeah
When no-ones around to me yeah yeah
This what I'm bound to be yeah
Depression been bound to me yeah yeah

[Interlude: Donald Glover]
We're all alone in the end so its good (Wow)
Its-that's the way it has to be (Really)
Yeah, I think so
Like but that's okay, you're alone in the beginning too

[Chorus: Azure The Paradox]
Bitch I'm gone, can't take this back
Fuck my life I'll fade to black
Been through shit can't stay on track
Looking away can't face the facts
I can't tell you where I'm at
Too far gone I might go mad
You were right I'm psycho damn
I lost my light I can't go back
Can't take this back
Fuck my life I'll fade to black
Been through shit can't stay on track
Looking away can't face the facts
I can't tell you where I'm at
Too far gone I might go mad
You were right I'm psycho damn
I lost my light I can't go back

[Outro: Azure The Paradox]
Yeah I don't know what's real to me
Just say you don't feel for me
Don't think you would deal with me
So say your next words carefully
Say your next words carefully
Oh say them oh so carefully
Cuz if I fade away
You might move on in a day, take my pain away
When I fade away
You won't even know my name

[Part Two: Transparent]

[Verse 1]
How do I feel
I got my emptiness back
I need to check on my past
I need a check for my racks
Before I back down to my last
Know I was down feeling bad
I took this knife out my back
Get you a plan of attack
If you gon end me make sure that it last
These boys got envy for shit in my past
All that shit passed
The pain all I got in my present
I'm pressing this shit in my tracks
Know that it's facts
I'm fading to black
I lost my friends over petty shit
They said go to hell so I guess I went
No second thought to that shit i did
Had to cut myself off fore I fucked up again
I learned some lessons I grew from the stress
Had to cover my pain and remain at my best
Been coping with all of my mess
So that's my excuse if I ain't get your text
My heart took a shot need a vest
Remember the shit that I said
But I was so drunk I was mixing my meds
Went on for some days and I'm losing my time
Wondering why y'all weren't blowing my line
But now that shit blowing my mind
Cuz I was an asshole
And lacking my memory make it go right
I wish when you left that I could say goodbye

[Chorus]
It's all black yeah
It's all black yeah
Fading to black yeah, fading to black yeah
It's all black yeah, it's all black yeah
I'm fading to black, fading to black, fading to black

[Verse 2]
Since we're being transparent
I think it's apparent that plenty definitely wrong with me
The last couple months been going through shit
I ain't wrote a song in weeks
But I'm breaking my cycle and penning these verses inside of this Bible
This girl cut me off cuz she think I'm a psycho
And she might be right, got nothing to lie for
I got some problems I need to address
Like this addiction to sex
It started right after my first
When we broke up I was looking for next
The crazy thing is it made me so empty inside
Stacking up counts and my count getting high
But none of them could be a wife
That's all that I wanted for all of my life
And when I got hold of this problem
That's when it got worst
Cuz the one time that I didn't want it
That shit ain't matter to her
Now I'm shattered I'm hurt
I can't even talk I can't even flirt
I'm flashing right back to that night and I'm cursed
I don't even think I can finish this verse

[Outro]
Like I wrote more, there's more to it
But I can't right now