CHOOSE ME / REGRETS PART 2

[Part 1: CHOOSE ME]

[Chorus]
I know its unfair the way that everything goes
But you always been there for the highs and the lows
And I'll always be there for you, when nobody knows
Everybody chose up, but its you that I chose
So I hope you choose me
If its been too late, was it my mistake
Was it all the bullshit that I used to say
Was it everything else that I was trying to change
Did it all for you, So I hope you choose me

[Verse]
Yeah, I been tryna find a middle ground
But all the shit inside, I'm feeling like a middle child
Disrespected by the guilt, bullied down by regret
I wish I never let myself get fucking stuck in my head
I always knew I was toxic, I told my friends I was not shit
For all the trauma that haunted, I just kept adding more nonsense
I was self sabotaging and manifesting my problems
I was fucking up so much I could invest in some condoms
Keep me safe from my bullshit, keep my feelings in check
Cuz I was hiding them so long from you I thought they were dead
But every time I fucking see you they would rise from the crypt
Them circumstances never ever let them amount to shit
I was so used to that, it became a part of me
But never having hope for love that shit just got so hard on me
And when you said you felt the same, I had to be like pardon me
That shit just never happens, everything just felt so far to me
Now I got feelings I ain't never fucking felt before
Take a couple days a couple weeks and then I fell some more
Then I start to fuck it up like right outside of heavens door
I couldn't keep my shit contained, emotionally I'm insecure
But I been learning and growing and therapy has been showing
How my mistakes were connected to deeper shit that's encoded
Right inside of my heart, I always knew it was broken
But the pieces were so shattered and I never could notice
But hindsight is 20/20
They say that life's a bitch, but honestly she's kind of funny
Everything I wanted I'm the reason that it's running
Couldn't take the pain of hurting you that's why I'm cutting
But I missing all the days that you would sleep at my place
All the times I was distracted memorizing your face
Looking back and looking up you give me reasons to pray
Even if we not together can we still be okay

[Chorus]
I know its unfair the way that everything goes
But you always been there for the highs and the lows
And I'll always be there for you, when nobody knows
Everybody chose up, but its you that I chose
So I hope you choose me
If its been too late, was it my mistake
Was it all the bullshit that I used to say
Was it everything else that I was trying to change
Did it all for you, So I hope you choose me

[Outro]
Or choose somebody better
Somebody that can keep they shit together
Somebody that won't have you under pressure
But if I'm still the guy for you I promise Imma keep it all together

[Part 2: REGRETS, PART 2]

[Verse]
Yeah, all them nights I stayed awake hoping that we could conversate
I'd like to kindly take them back, I never got the time of day
Used to think I was a devil but I couldn't advocate
Now I'm seeing life without you took a bit to acclimate
I know you tired of hearing sorry after wilding out
All those regrets don't mean a thing is what I'm finding out
I still be thinking maybe later if the timing's out
But I don't see you spinning back to me this ain't no roundabout
I got a problem thinking that I don't deserve shit
22 years ain't a day I thought was worth it
Idolized you I really saw you being perfect
Just because I got a little deeper than the surface
I won't hold you up and waste your motherfucking time
Even though I'm still in love with you, you probably won't be mine
That's why I bother with these hoes, I don't even have to try
Giving pieces of my penis just to get some peace of mind

[Bridge: The Weeknd]
I can't feel my face when I'm with you
But I love it, but I love it, oh
I can't feel my face when I'm with you
But I love it, but I love it, oh

[Outro]
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