Lonely.

Wake up turn my computer on
Try to distract myself but nobody's on
Only people I've had have already moved on
Yeah fuck it, time to write another sad song
Maybe by the time I'm done, I'll be better all along
And I keep making 'em but I feel more alone
I don't understand why every single person's gone
And the only ones who care are on a different timezone

At first, it wasn't really this bad
I had someone and she was all that I had
I guess its my fault, put your happiness in others
And all you'll find is yourself feeling sad
She can't be there for me when she already has it bad
And I understand where she's coming from and I can't be mad
In fact shes gonna be happier so I should be glad
But in the end I still wish she's someone I can have

Why do they always leave?
I'm tired of feeling lonely
I guess I'm just naive
To think I'll be happy
I want to give up
But I can't bring myself to

Hope is make-believe
I should accept reality
I want to disappear
I have nobody
I can't let them grieve
Until the day I don't care anymore

I'm tired of venting it's all the same
Talk about your issues and nothings changed
All you do is make yourself seem insane
But I guess listening to this song you're thinking the same
On top of that all it does is drive people away
At the end of it they don't even know what to say
You've put them in this position and you ruined their day
When using your words, there's a price to pay

She's gone but at least I have my family I thought
Next day, 4:30 AM my dad calls me distraught
Said "I'm leaving the house because your mom and I fought"
He even said they're divorcing and untying the knot
It's fine as long as they're gonna be happy I thought
Until they made me pick between them now that's a tough spot
How do you pick between two people you love a lot?
Man sometimes I wish my head would get shot

Why do they always leave?
I'm tired of feeling lonely
I guess I'm just naive
To think I'll be happy
I want to give up
But I can't bring myself to

Hope is make-believe
I should accept reality
I want to disappear
I have nobody
I can't let them grieve
Until the day I don't care anymore

Last verse, but I have so much to say
Left my friends back home and moved away
It was a good opportunity and I'll be good I prayed
But what's the point of praying when no one hears what you say
Man why is it so hard for me to just feel okay
And why do I have so much shit in my brain that I can't convey
Why does my happiness depend on others, is there another way
figure that out or I off myself, but there will come a day

In the end, I lost my friends, family, home, and love
Like how could this happen if there was someone above?
But honestly, depression fits me like a glove
And without it, I'm lost when push comes to shove
I reminisce on the memories I took for granted
And about the days when I used to feel enchanted
I know I shouldn't, but those memories are implanted
In my head and they're here until to my grave I'm handed