lying2Myself

I been smoking too much
I been getting out my shell
I been lying to myself
Lotta time getting high by myself

Push away 'em all including family
Don't even respond when they texting me
But I know I should be thankful that they even hit me back
I should be a better son
Trying to be a better man
Receipts from money I shouldn't have spent
Lotta guilt from talking bout myself
I get so up in my head
Beat myself up for accomplishments
Read, watch TV, go outside
What you accomplishing
I know it's wrong but everything got a dark tinge to it
Man I been on sum
I been moving through it
Don't know if I have enough to keep moving
Bro text me like please don't be stupid
Hit back like bruh I think I know what I'm doing

I been getting out my shell
I been lying to myself
Lotta time getting high by myself
I been getting out my shell
I been lying to myself
Lotta time spent getting high by myself