DOPPELGANER

I've seen myself
Better than before
I watch him crumble
Wither into decay
I open my wrist
And tug at my veins
The most control ill have
Will just fade away
I'll wrap my lips
Around a cold chamber
But I'll forget my pain
By the break of day
I'm not hurt
so there's nothing to heal
I'll pretend I'm alright
Until those memories fade

I'll be happy soon
When I stop dreaming
I'll be happy soon
When I stop thinking

I'll confide with Alastor
I'll tear open my body
I'll attempt to purge
The thoughts from my head
They scream at me
Tear away at my skin
Fill me with fear
And inescapable dread
I have so much guilt
Over the things I've done
I have so much guilt
Over the things I said
I regret that I met you
I regret that I've hurt you
But none of it matters
I'll soon be dead

I'll be happy soon
When I stop dreaming
I'll be happy soon
When I stop thinking

I can't stop hurting myself
With the blade you stuck in me
I twist it around
A heart to replace
I'll think back to the movies
Where we met in suits
I'd never forget your smile
I'd never forget your face
We sat under the sun
In an opening in the woods
I'd never felt this feeling
Blessed by your presence
It was all too good for me
I knew the truth
It wasn't me in those memories
Someone was in my place

I'll be happy soon
When I stop dreaming
I'll be happy soon
When I stop thinking

It's been two weeks since we split
I've never felt so depressed
My life is of much shame
A parasite to you
I never knew how much
I had killed inside of you
I never knew how long
I had stabbed inside of you
You see me as different
As a monster as such
I still love you deep down
But you don't love me too
I had one chance
To live normal again
And I ripped it away
For a feeling I knew