Sertraline

Circling the drain
I think I’ve found my way out
From this game
Think it’s sad to see
This tragic scene before me
And I don’t want to understand

Drifting through such substance riddled seas
A misanthrope in misery
I'm simply starving for affection
My sentiments insipidly
Given out so superfluously
Held in contempt and enmity
Gestating dread from isolation
And overwhelming dependency

It’s a wonderful feeling
I never want to let go
A wonderful feeling
I never want to let go

Fortune lies in hollowed searching eyes
Deception built on tiny capsuled lies
Now it’s what we do
Cry a river, flood your lungs, don’t breathe
To make your mind escape the truth and sleep
Now back to sleep now

Misguided missiles meant for me
Sought to destroy all clarity
Impair my judgment, feed my need
For wax poetic, woe is me
Fuel this pathetic masquerade
Ravish my ego, make me stay
Self-diagnosis seems to be
What's been debilitating me

It’s a wonderful feeling
I never want to let go
A wonderful feeling
I never want to let go

Hope, forgive, survive
I swear I have been searching
All my life
I began to wake
The world will shake
But in my heart
I’d rather watch it burn

Tell me who you want me to be
(Dysphoria has done me in)
Don’t understand why I can’t just live now
(Sever these ties)
Tell me who you want me to be
(My sub-par life)
Don't understand why I can't just live now