Loving Hating It

Loving, hating it, enjoying, not enjoying it
Taking comfort in discomfort
It's so quiet, it makes me nervous
I'm suspicious of the obvious

I'm looking for the light in the darkest of places
When I wanna get up, I go down
And I dig for ages

I punish myself 'cause I wanna be good
I hate myself for always wanting love
It's a tough way to live but the rewards
Are 'sposed to be enough

Agree to disagree, please forgive me
No means yes, thou dost protest too much
Never look a gift horse in the mouth

I try to be grateful for the gifts I land
If they came so easy, I catch to the hander
Nothing worth anything ever came for free
I'm gonna stand right here and bark up the tall tree
I work that hard, big things are gonna come to me

I'm looking for the light in the darkest of places
I wanna get up, I go down, I dig for ages
Nothing worth anything ever came for free
I'm gonna stand right here and bark up the tall tree
I work that hard, big things are gonna come to me

I'm settling the score, you start with the encore
Got a sister and a brother, you sleep with your lover
Acting like an orphan, when you could be my mother

Time's ticking, are you the one?
Second lost is second to none
Favor the odds, pray to the gods
I'm gonna up the ante, gonna drop my panties
I work so hard, big things are gonna come to me