Grim

Wake up
Put a mask on everyday
Don’t want people to see our true face
I’m afraid of the light
But I despise the dark
Where’s the essence in between
I’m falling on my knees
Can’t you see?
I need help
I’m hopeless, I’m worthless
My enemies always come back to me
Make it end, make it stop
I’m pleading you
I need an escape from this life
But I don’t wanna die
What do I do?
I’ve worn a mask for so long
They just don’t understand
How I fear life
But I even fear death
Do they care, do they understand?
They probably don’t
Help me see
Why I’m meant to go through with this suffering
The aching, the agony
The desperation from my infatuation
With the one that I need
The one who can’t see me through
So help me take a bullet to my head
But wait!
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna live
I can’t live
I can’t die
Not now, not ever
Not until I’m ready to die
Which is probably never