​confessionals

[Verse 1]
Truth be told
I was a kid when I’d known
That I was gold
When everyone else was diamond

Took me nineteen years
To realize what that meant
But maybe for you
It will take much longer than that

I know you’ll hear this song
I hope you know I mean well
I hid it for so long
But now I think it’s time I tell you

[Verse 2]
That I met him
Under a heat lightning sky
Though he caught flames
I knew it’s smart to tread light

Over ten months now
Swoon him with self-made lullabies
Let him crack his jokes
When we’re on video call every night

[Verse 3]
Fitting ourselves through cupboards
Walking around lost suburbs
It’s the hymn of two lovers
One you’ve sung to each other

Can’t you just be happy?
That finally someone loves me?
And if you’re thinking this is somebody’s work
I’ll tell you now that there is

[Verse 4]
Nobody else
Who could make me feel this way
I’m still your son
If you believe nothing’s changed

I know you have known
Just in denial from what’s planned
I can’t give you a grandchild
And I’m sorry for that

[Verse 5]
And I’m sorry I’ve led you on
I’m sorry I’ve let you down
I’m sorry this can’t go on
I’m sorry it ends like that

You should be sorry, too
For all the jokes that you made
Made me think my life was cruel
How you couldn’t make me feel safe

When I know you’ve known
Just in denial from what’s planned
I can’t give you a grandchild
Well, you can ask my sister for that

[Verse 6]
Fitting myself through cupboards
Walking around lost suburbs
It’s the hymn of your son and
He’s asking you through this song that

Can’t you just be happy?
I get to choose who loves me
And if you’re thinking this is somebody’s work
I’ll tell you now that there is

[Verse 7]
Nobody else
Who could make me feel this way
I’m still your son
If you make sure nothing’s changed

I know you had plans
Someone to bear your last name
I can’t change the fact that
I can’t change

[Bridge]
They don’t wanna know you now
They don’t wanna know you now
They don’t wanna know you as if they hadn’t known somehow
(I can't change)
They wanna know you now
They wanna know you now
They wanna know you as if you weren’t you throughout
(I can't)

[Verse 8]
When I know you’ve known
Just in denial from what’s planned
I couldn’t tell you sooner
(I’m sorry for that) You should be sorry for that