Prelude To Suicide

I see your face
I feel the air freezin'
I hear the silence
cut by footsteps
in this moment
the sound of heartbeats'
so close
no one will care
I still breathe or bleed
affection, nowhere to fill
resolution, no matter at all
still alone with my grief
here I'm moaning to be free
just filling up the
hole in my heart
I'm searching where my soul
belongs
maybe someone to hold on to
even a desire for revenge
only turns to fatal loneliness
I'm whirling,
in the spinning wheel
but I know now's the time to
move on

there was a choice
to live or die
it seems unclear
as time goes by
the pressure to win
leads to series of fights
the dead is quiet
he's in relief
devotion, no one deserves it
conviction, don't mean anything
still alone with my grief
here I'm moaning to be free
just filling up the
hole in my heart
I'm searching where my soul
belongs
maybe it's a place full of gray
even a desire for revenge
only turns to fatal loneliness
I'm here,there may be a reason
and I know now's the time
to reveal