Ruin

This project is the death of our lives
As facades built upon society's demise
This is the birth of the true three sides
This is Ruin
Please be advised

Not gonna lie, it's been a rough year
Screaming and yelling, it's tough here
Don't know my name? I don't care
It's better that way, I don't wanna hear
How much I changed in the past year
I don't think I changed enough in the past year
Witnessed my family tear into pieces
Pure hatred, once love but died
Devil laughed so hard he cried
Told my girl I don't love her no more
She hates me now, we don't talk no more
Will never love another again
Please get that through your head
My best friend is this pad and pen
I can't remember what I just said
Sometimes I think I might be dead
Oh shit, she left me on read

Pushed everyone I loved away
Only the real ones stayed
Focused on myself, no other way
Don't care about others, just myself
Looked for God but he didn't show up
Crash the party imma show up
Who left me here alone?
Nobody calling my phone, get in my zone
Injury prone, too drunk to find my way home
Nah, I'm just teasing
This is my lesson, sit down while I'm teaching
I can't go one night without screaming
I'm listening, I'm studying
Give me a rally for my music

Let's bring down the rain
Something wrong with my brain
Looks like I'm going insane
Mess up everything I look at
Oh God, why can't I fix that?
I'll miss that, looking at pictures that ain't me
Funny looks from the killer consuming me
Cops outside, ready to cuff me
Arrest me, believe me they tried
I got nothing to hide
I'm broken inside
I cannot deny
I want to break out and cry
And make myself fly
To a place where I can peacefully die

Never thought I'd live past eighteen
Nothing here is able to save me
They say the good die young
Nineteen now, am I still young?
Must be bad inside
Used to get mad when I woke up alive
Would be better if I was dead
Not suicidal, don't mind dying
People out here lying'
Tryin', cryin'
Record deal I'll sign it
Not much to say, I only complain
Woke up one day, no family
Murder this beat, not claiming defeat
Can't stand this triangle heat
Look in the mirror, what do you see?
Don't believe me? Just watch me
Woo