Change

And I will never see the truth,
This is not a matter of my youth.
I do not need anybody else,
Bonds would put my mind into cells.

And I will never know I was wrong,
Never listen to those truly strong.
I do not fear anything that's not me,
Ignorance is the ultimate key.

But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
But change myself? Never, never!
The very thought sends shivers down my spine.
I'm sure everything, everything will be fine.

I am the one who cries out at night,
For somebody to change my very core.
Not sure why I live in endless fright,
Doomed to love only myself forevermore.

I am the one who has no real friends,
Shallow people flocking to my banner.
Always trying to make easy amends,
Cherishing my own overbearing manner.

Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.

Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.

But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
Maybe I really was too clever.
But I wouldn't want to end like that.
I would die lonely and incredibly sad.

I will never drag myself out of this,
The shadows of my past bogging me down.
Feeling lost in turmoil and crisis,
My face forever set in an endless frown.

I have been hurt beyond mental repair,
Thence destined to suffer eternal damnation.
No one can be there for me to care,
But without I will never find salvation.

Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.

Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.

Everything is about control.
I must never slip, nor ever fall.
Anything is possible for me.
I must never doubt, and finally be free.

And finally be free.